No, I do not want you to live amongst those people. Maybe it was for the best that you left when you did. But if anyone would ever give me an opportunity to hear your voice again or bid you a proper goodbye, I would grab it and won't let go.
To say that I miss her is an understatement. I don't think ANYBODY knows how that grief feels like. Everyone's grief s different. I don't believe in the looking down from heaven bullcrap, but I'd like to say that I love you so much. And always will.